| bleh |
[Jun. 29th, 2004|02:03 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  tired | ] |
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| | bullet ride... in flames | ] |
i threw up in a trash can yesterday i was all like blah and it was all green and all that good stuff i asked if i could go to the bathroom and then the teacher took like 5 fucking minutes to write aa pass to go to the bath room and i would have made it in time if she didnt take so long so i walked over to the trashcan and then i threw up in it it was pretty funny and today nothing really happened and all that good stuff so yeah leave me one if you want to..... ill add on to this one later maybe...
your dark friend,
taylor |
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| OUCHIES |
[Jun. 26th, 2004|12:15 am] |
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| |  jubilant | ] |
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| | german techno music stuff that goes oooomsk ooomsk | ] |
i dont know why its ouchies it just is and all that good stuff so yeah , and ummmm so yeah well i did cut my hand on a dog food lid yesterday and it was so cool cuz i was bleeding everywhere and all that good stuff so yeah and now ive got a bloody paper towel, and i called my grandpa a satanist cuz he was wearing all black yesterday too it was great cuz i wear more black then he does... woohoohoo and all that good stuff so yeah and then some other cool stuff happened and hookars happened today and all that good crappy stuff too and umm i threw up yesterday and..... yeah not much so leave me a massage and i know thats massage cuz im weird like that so yeah leave me one |
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| WHy me? |
[Jun. 17th, 2004|05:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | hands down, Dashboard Confessionals | ] |
ok yeah this is what has been giong on for the past month or so and all that good stuff, this is a convo with me and my Rachel
YourCldTouch: my grandparents are yelling at me alot, and shit theyre just making me feel worse than what i already do and i was already really really depressed
rAchElrAe4u: i am really really
rAchElrAe4u: sorry
YourCldTouch: dont worry about it
YourCldTouch: your note made me smile
YourCldTouch: i hadnt smiled in a while b4 then
YourCldTouch: today sucked so bad
rAchElrAe4u: why what else happened
YourCldTouch: i did everything i could to try and pass at the last minute and my grandparents dont seem to realize that i did, i fucking stayed after, to try and pass, and just BLAH, theyre like youre so stupid taylor thats nothing to be proud of
YourCldTouch: and i know its not but still
rAchElrAe4u: well atleast you tried to pass thats better than not tring at all
YourCldTouch: i know
YourCldTouch: i tried so hard to
YourCldTouch: and i passed English and EarthScience, but do they care no
rAchElrAe4u: well you know what i care
YourCldTouch: and those were the 2 that they kept getting on my back for they were all like blah why dont you pass english or earth science
YourCldTouch: and now that i have they dont care
YourCldTouch: thank you
and yeah its fucking gay heres another convo with me and Cyndrah that will explain it a little bit more...
YourCldTouch: i just want to go to a friends house were there isnt any yelling
YourCldTouch: i know
YourCldTouch: but i dont want it to happen alot
YourCldTouch: like it happens here
YourCldTouch: its everyday i get yelled at and put down by my grandparents
BGBRAT676: well fight back by shoing them that they can be proud of you....
BGBRAT676: by passing maybe/
BGBRAT676: ?
BGBRAT676: ?**
YourCldTouch: you didnt get it
YourCldTouch: i tried so hard
BGBRAT676: so howd you fail??
YourCldTouch: i blew off all of my friends to try and pass for like 2/3 weeks everyday to get work done i stayed after school, i put everything into i stayed up late, got off the bus early to do stuff
YourCldTouch: pe i didnt dress out, i tried to get my grade up for that too
YourCldTouch: and in algebra i failed by 3 points
BGBRAT676: thats gay
YourCldTouch: i know
so yeah leave me a comment if you want to.....
and i know im not the only in the world with problems, but i do have problems...
Your Dark Friend,
Taylor Shinn |
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| I GOT MY JOURNAL BACK WOOHOOHOOHOO |
[Jun. 15th, 2004|11:21 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  hyper | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | hands down, Dashboard Confessionals | ] |
I WAS really stupid i and i got my journal backso yay woohooo i heart my Rachel shes so cool!!! ok yeah well ive been sick and all that good stuff so yeah i dont really know what to say so muahahahahaha leave me one if you wanna be stupid!!! and just let all your anger out or if you can fix my left thumb... |
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| depressed and bored |
[Jun. 5th, 2004|07:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | what becomes of the broken hearted.... The Temptations | ] |
Nothing fucking happened at all today, so i went for a bike ride for about 3 hours to no whereness, and bumped into Chelsea, and then got a dollor 38, then i went and got some fries to eat on the way cuz i can do stuff like that,and then i got home ate a whole bunch and then just yeah i played alot of WC3 (WarCraft 3) yeah its a good game, and yeah then i came home and ate some more wendys cuz my gma got some and yeah..... leave me one, i dont know why im depressed i just am |
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| TO THE MALL |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|11:03 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | what becomes of the broken hearted.... The Temptations | ] |
Today i went to the mall with Rachel and the Beener and some other guys, and we went into KB toys and there was this little asian kid who kept hitting us with plastic swords and he chased us around the store and stuff, and we helped with americas overweight prolem, we pushed the emergency button for the escalator!!!!!!yay we should be like superheros or something!, so then we wandered around and me and Rachel went on the carosel or something like that and then we just like sat around and while everyone smoked and it was gay cuz smoking is stupid, and yeah well i played in the rain too and then yeah this guy that likes Rachel felt like shit or something and then he walked away from us, so then like we had to go find him, and Rachel felt bad, cuz she thought it was her fault but we didnt know for sure, and like just a whole bunch of shit and yeah well today kinda sucked but i got to spend time with Rachel so its all good leave me one
Your Dark Friend,
Taylor |
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| tired or depressed, im undecided |
[Jun. 2nd, 2004|07:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | stairway to heaven, Led Zepplin | ] |
Today was ok, and sucked completely all at the same time; At school it was ok, except i was mad tired and everyone was like are you ok? and it got annoying, and i was supposed to swim with Rachel, but couldnt because julie the person that was supposed to pick her up had passed out and its horrible, i feel so bad for her shes gone through so much, and yeah well i kept an eye on her for the period that i was there, and yeah well then i came home and picked some leaves up and yeah, well Holly is seemed ok until i had read her journal and she feels like shit she wrote and i feel so bad. so yeah well me and Rachel are gonna hang out tomorrow some how... i wish she would just like ride the bus home with me but that would hurt Holly to much, and then i dont know if i can ride her bus home cuz i would have to get a whole bunch of stuff done so i could and then it would be stupid, so yeah but this weekend were going to go see a movie together(harry potter) so yeah it should prove fun and thats about it |
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| WOW IM STUPID |
[May. 31st, 2004|12:23 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | tocatta and fugue in D minor~ Bach | ] |
i dont know for why im stupid i just am, but yeah i chilled with holly today and i got her to stop crying again, and yeah i went for like 3 bike rides, just to do it.... and if you people are smart then you would know that my grandpa had heart surgery well hes back now and i still get to keep his cell phone its great YAYAYAYAYAY so now it is my cell phone you filthy whores and yeah well nothing is really new so yeah leave me a comment if you know whats bugging me !!!!!!!!! ive just been thinking about friends, my parents, love, and other stupid shit like that so if you can figure out what is wrong with me or you just wanna be stupid then leave me a comment
Your dark friend
Taylor |
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| suicide? |
[May. 25th, 2004|06:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | fear of the dark Cradle of Filth | ] |
This isnt the first time ive contemplated on wether i should kill myself or not because there is just so much shit in my life its not even funny, according to my grandmother nothing i do is good enough for her or my grandpa and i am one of the best local guitar players that ive heard and ive only been playing for about 1 year now and thats a whole lot of shit to just pick up like that and ive been teaching my self so thats saving money, they never support me in anything that i do, and they treat me like fucking shit, and its not just that i go to school to get away from all the fucking shit at my house and then when i get there it seems that all thats going around is eew you like her or god i hate her shes so stupid, and i make it my job to keep everyone from fighting cuz i cant stand it, and it seems that i can never do anything right because i try to help Ashli, ill do anything for her (with in reason) to keep her happy cuz it hurts me to see her cry about something like what shes going through, becuase i went through the same thing and it fucking sux i cant stand it and im out. so yeah bye leave me one
your dark friend
Taylor |
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| WOAH.... shit i forgot |
[May. 23rd, 2004|12:20 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | hyper | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | WONDER BOY by tenacious D | ] |
yeah today was ok, i had to sit in a fucking van for about an hour in a parking lot at the pavillion cuz yeah and it was mad hott then i took a piss in a bottle. It was mad hott so i was like n my boxers it was pretty funny and last night tom spent the night we had mad baguettes it was great and my friend james was up at walmart looking for hand lotion and toilet paper
it was great.... so yeah we went shopping cart skating
and then we farted in block buster and then james drove me and tom home and then we ate some pizza and then yeah we played mad video games and talked about chics and stuff and i think i like Valerie she seems pretty cool but i still need to meet her so yeah but hmmmn ok well im out so yeah.. leave me one |
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| I Think Ill Shoot Myself |
[May. 10th, 2004|06:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | rejected | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Blinded by Fear, by At the Gates and Forever by Asilaydying | ] |
Ok well my brother is a fucking dick head because he knows that i love Holly with all of my heart and he insists on holding her and grabing her ass infront of me just out of spite and he knows it pisses me off cuz i hit him for it and all this other shit and yeah ive just been through alot of shit and im tired of it and i need to get over her but i cant because i love her to much and he just ran off to go meet up with her up at walmart. and GRR im going to shoot him and me and yeah but im so fucked up right now.... she says she loves me and at the same time she says shes obsessed with this other guy Charles and shit and she does stuff with other guys and its not right if she says she loves me and i hand my heart to her and she doesnt seem to care and my life has revolved around her for so long its not even funny and im tired of it and i dont think its right what happens to me, no one really knows all the shit that goes on in my life and what fucks it up so bad Ashli knows some and Katey said shed try to help me with my brother, lol, ok but hes 18 and Holly is 15 and its not right he thinks im cool with him but i just wanna fucking nail him to some boreds and hang him from a tree light him on fire and use him as target practice all after i rip out his intestines and force them down his throat. And yeah well hmmn i just hope he dies a very painful death.............. and yeah but Ryan just ran off with her to Walmart and all this other shit and just the day before yesterday i had asked if Holly truly loves me and she had said yes honestly supposedly, but im not sure anymore honestly im not. She gives me too much shit. so yeah leave a comment.....
Your Dark Friend,
Taylor |
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| hmmmn |
[May. 9th, 2004|10:52 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | okay | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the pick axe murders, Cannibal Corpse | ] |
Today was pretty cool, my bro came home so we wrestled and kicked the shit out of each other.... it was great i got him into a head lock and he was like coahchhsodahfioijaisj i cnt breath cuz im a loser and then the cheap bastard got me into one after i was nice and let him out..... so yeah but he brought over his new cat named waffles and all that other cool stuff and yeah well that cat like smelled my shoe and got this face like thats just not right and it like smacked its self in the face it was great.. lol ok well im out like a fat kid in dodge ball so leave a massage
love the fat kid with an afro, Taylor |
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| I Love chinchillas!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[May. 4th, 2004|11:48 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | deanne the arsonist by Atreyu | ] |
Today was one of the coolest ever.... I... GOT... TO... PLAY...... WITH..... A.... CHINCHILLA.....I love chinchillas theyre so cool it fell asleep on my arm cuz i was holding it for like 2 hours and i was nice and warm and yeah but hmmmmn i got to chill with holly today and shes quitting smoking which is really cool so yeah... I love both Holly and Chinchillas but i love holly more, and i love Ashli like a good friend and Ally too Im angary at Kelly right now cuz she was supposed to chill with me over the weekend but did she no she didnt, cuz shes being a hoe bag.... and yeah well hmmn i gottsta go now buhbye oh and this is a chinchilla... its my icon |
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| BORED AS SHIAT |
[Apr. 25th, 2004|12:03 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | slaughter of the soul, At The Gates | ] |
ive been bored as shit practically all day... Tom came over and we walked around and found a case to a porno movie it was pretty funny then yeah we played guitar alot and ummm yeah ive just been bored as shit.... |
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| Who will Screw me???? |
[Apr. 23rd, 2004|11:41 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | embody the invisible | ] |
Today i spent trying to find out who would screw me so far not many people but hmmn whatever... well Holly is being stupid now cuz im not sure if its even worth it anymore cuz im trying my best to make her happy and still keep her out of trouble but she seems to love trouble so hmmmn i dont konw what to do anymore i just feel like im not enough for her anymore i try to make her happy but it just doesnt seem to wrk all she does is take and deepen the pain in me and it fucking blows,,, oh and i got a new cool shirt with the name of a hawaiian wiskey on it so yeah leave a comment |
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| SLEEPY...... |
[Apr. 18th, 2004|12:11 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Suicide and Other Comforts | ] |
Yeah well today i was tired cuz i went to bed at like 4 then my gparents woke me up at like 11 which is not enough sleep for me and all that good stuff... ok yeah well anyways im still grounded which sux freakin dck and all that shit and stuff so yeah hmm well what happened today was i had to take Leaha(4yr. old cousin) over to her stupid friends house well i geuss its good shes got friends. And yeah well so yeah then when i had to go pick her up she had a mother fucking fit and wouldnt come with me so i had to drag her and her scooter and her helmet for about 2 fucking blocks and then when we got home she had another fit cuz she forgot her stupid scrunchie so then we had to go all the way back get her scrunchie this time she came home quietly and it wasnt all that bad but then she would hold my hand and stuff and she almost got hit by a car so then i had to pick her up and carry her and then people looked me like i was fucking stealing her or something and shit which pissed me off so yeah and my neighbor who is pretty cool is going to give away one of his wind surfing thing-a-majigger and stuff so i might get that or ryan might so yeah but i doubt it cuz we dont have enough space for it anywhere which sux and we dont go windsurfing enough to have it so yeah well hmmn thats about it..... oh yeah me and Ashli had alot of fun we made a game out of saying stuff with just 4 letter words it was great ok well im out |
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| Im Gonna Die........... eventually |
[Apr. 16th, 2004|07:03 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | blah | ] |
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| | youre pretty when im drunk... The Bloodhound Gang | ] |
Ok well today sux because Holly, the love of my life, just got back from a long ass vacation from florida she cant come over here and i cant go see her.... so im sad, i cant go see anyone and yeah because i got caught stealing. So yeah well i still dont know if i can go to the concert.... well secretly tonight im going to go see holly at like 1 so yeah it should prove fun.... Holly got me this really cool necklace from Florida and yeah i thanked her and gave her a really big hug it was cool she actually got taller which i thought was imposssible but i geuss i was wrong she said her boobs got bigger too which is always a good thing so yeah ok well leave me one when youre done. |
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| IN TROUBLE BITCHES!!! |
[Apr. 15th, 2004|10:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | guilty | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Mannequin | ] |
Today was cool all up until i got friggin arrested... It sucked ass, Me and Babushka were walking around the ocean front like type place around there, and Babushka being her she wanted a sign so she was like Yonni go get me a handicapped sign and since i Nub her so much i went and kicked it till i could pick it up from out of the ground and yeah well we were walking around for a while with a 6 foot sign for about a friggin mile and then all of a sudden the cop that we had just friggin avoided was like beeboobeeboobeeboo and then he was like stop in the name of the law except for all that talking part and the beeboo stuff but it would have been great if he did but sadly he didnt and then he almost stole Babushkas learners permit and kept it for himself so that he could pass off as her but it wouldnt of worked... the eyes looked nothing like his that would have thrown it off completely... ok well anyways yeah so we got to sit in the back of the police car for about half an hour and then Babushkas mom came and picked us up and then we went back to her apartment and then we sat around all moping and moping like, and then her mom walked in the room and said that she was going to have to think long and hard wether or not to sell our tickets for the Metallica and Godsmack concert which were like $120.00 dollars for the both or so... and yeah well she cryed cuz that was for her birthday and stuff so i gave her a hug... and yeah well so far ive not been grounded and yeah well leave me a comment once youre done reading this |
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| She loves me not... |
[Apr. 14th, 2004|04:35 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Mannequin | ] |
Im sad now because Ally Kitty Kat doesnt like me... well she does but she only likes me as a friend, or a brother and i like her more than that and it hurt me SHE CRAPPED ON MY HEART!!!!!!!!! and now im sad so yeah. But Babushka tried to help me out with her but it didnt work thanks anyways babushka... ok well im out leave me one. |
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| going to babushkas house |
[Apr. 13th, 2004|11:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | hallowed be thy name | ] |
Today I went to Babushkas house shes really cool she bit me and yeah well i dont feel good cuz all we did was eat well thats all I did and cool stuff like that and Alley kitty kat bit me and i liked it cuz i like gettin bit but not by babushka cuz she hurts when she bites me but yeah i still like gettin bit cuz im fucked up like that and Justine wants me to say hi cuz she loves my sexy nipples and great stuff like that and my brother is up in PA. and we all miss him so yeah cuz its mad boring up in my hizzouse lol and good stuff like that and im out like a guinea pig in gerbil ninja wire fighting. |
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